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Apr. 9th, 2017 06:39 pmSince I decided to stay at livejournal and just use dreamwidth as a backup journal, I wanted to inform you: I will be posting public and in english, too. I really wanna improve my english. so here we go.
I am a little bit frustrated - I wanted to keep my official blog updated (sarkasmuz.net) but I don't know why: I destroyed the htcacces file of my wordpress (I guess). anyway, you won't see anything when visiting my domain and that sucks ass. since i am too stupid to fix it and the netcup (domain and server) team can't help me either, it'll just stay like that...
on the other hand I find it pretty difficult to keep all social media updated. I always forget to update my art tumblr or the artstation and instagram is going on my nerves. or it's my smartphone, who knows. it's always laggy and I can't post more than a few pics in a row before it goes completely nuts. I really wanna keep my wordpress (you can get access over www.wordpress.sarkasmuz.net) blog up to date, but it doesn't work with my domain anymore. I really thinking about deleting it all.
I am not able to write anymore. :( I have so many other things in mind or need to do, it's making me frustrated. I have a HUGE fantasy world which is pretty old (10 years, i guess even more). sadly, since avatar aired, everyone thinks it's stolen but the idea of a world with the four elements as weapons and as a form of "magic" wasn't new. In my world, it's kind of steam-punky (I guess) and I had so much fun planning out everything and write ideas down, but well. you know, the start is the hardest thing in writing something. And I can't decide whether to write it in german and translating it into english later or really TRY to write it in english. dunno. but well, I don't even have time to draw more than a few hours a week so no time for writing...and since i am not able to describe scenery in english (lack of vocabulary) that wouldn't be the best idea...
I am glad I am able to read from time to time, though it's just mostly comics or manga. BUT!
I found a really lovely book named "Fangirl" and it's awesome so far. I can relate a lot, though I am not writing any fancition myself. But it is funny nonetheless.
And my difficulty with "keeping my attention" is giving me a headache. I really want to move forward, to practise (drawing) and to eat healthy and, AND, AND. But everything fails because of no time, no energy or just something else. or forced socialising. I hate that pretty much, that's why I can relate with Cather from "Fangirl" so much. There was a time when beeing alone and beeing a hermit wasn't so damn complicated. Sometimes being in a relationship isn't as easy and beautifully, dreamy and romantic as everyone thinks. Especially when you're good and comfortable in being alone (and for yourself). and sometimes having your own apartment, your own life and being an adult is damn exhausting and frustrating. Meh, meh, meh.
Well, I just ranted pretty much. Deal with it 8P
I am a little bit frustrated - I wanted to keep my official blog updated (sarkasmuz.net) but I don't know why: I destroyed the htcacces file of my wordpress (I guess). anyway, you won't see anything when visiting my domain and that sucks ass. since i am too stupid to fix it and the netcup (domain and server) team can't help me either, it'll just stay like that...
on the other hand I find it pretty difficult to keep all social media updated. I always forget to update my art tumblr or the artstation and instagram is going on my nerves. or it's my smartphone, who knows. it's always laggy and I can't post more than a few pics in a row before it goes completely nuts. I really wanna keep my wordpress (you can get access over www.wordpress.sarkasmuz.net) blog up to date, but it doesn't work with my domain anymore. I really thinking about deleting it all.
I am not able to write anymore. :( I have so many other things in mind or need to do, it's making me frustrated. I have a HUGE fantasy world which is pretty old (10 years, i guess even more). sadly, since avatar aired, everyone thinks it's stolen but the idea of a world with the four elements as weapons and as a form of "magic" wasn't new. In my world, it's kind of steam-punky (I guess) and I had so much fun planning out everything and write ideas down, but well. you know, the start is the hardest thing in writing something. And I can't decide whether to write it in german and translating it into english later or really TRY to write it in english. dunno. but well, I don't even have time to draw more than a few hours a week so no time for writing...and since i am not able to describe scenery in english (lack of vocabulary) that wouldn't be the best idea...
I am glad I am able to read from time to time, though it's just mostly comics or manga. BUT!
I found a really lovely book named "Fangirl" and it's awesome so far. I can relate a lot, though I am not writing any fancition myself. But it is funny nonetheless.
And my difficulty with "keeping my attention" is giving me a headache. I really want to move forward, to practise (drawing) and to eat healthy and, AND, AND. But everything fails because of no time, no energy or just something else. or forced socialising. I hate that pretty much, that's why I can relate with Cather from "Fangirl" so much. There was a time when beeing alone and beeing a hermit wasn't so damn complicated. Sometimes being in a relationship isn't as easy and beautifully, dreamy and romantic as everyone thinks. Especially when you're good and comfortable in being alone (and for yourself). and sometimes having your own apartment, your own life and being an adult is damn exhausting and frustrating. Meh, meh, meh.
Well, I just ranted pretty much. Deal with it 8P
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